Shifting Perspective

A while ago I had an experience I would like to share with you. I heard some news that triggered me into regressing to my eight year old self.

My body went into physical arousal and fear, my head was spinning and my thoughts were out of control. I decided there and then what action I was going to take and what I was going to say to the person involved. I was reacting from a wounded child place. I became aware of what was happening and did some meditation to soothe my jangled nervous system. This triggering came from the trauma of being bullied for eight years at school and being made to feel ‘defective’ because I could not stand up for myself. I simply could not “hit her back”

By the end of the meditation I felt present and peaceful.

My perspective on the situation had completely changed. I could see that it was, in fact impossible to make decisions for my highest and greatest good in that wounded child place. Once I had calmed my nervous system and grown back into my adult self I could see that what I had thought I was going to do wasn’t in fact necessary or helpful to me or my life. I could now choose to respond to the situation in a way that benefits me and my life.