I have a daily sitting meditation practice. Sometimes I experience profound feelings of calm, rest and stillness.
Over the past couple of months however I have felt restless and the time has gone really slowly. It has not been what I think it should be or want it to be. In one of those ah ha moments we all have from time to time, I realised that this struggle is actually the practice.
The more we want things to be different than they are, the more we add to our suffering. Since I have become aware of the story I had gotten into about my practice I have become more mindful and aware of it. I have been able to stop wanting it to be different and accept that at times I have a chatty mind and I won’t always connect to my deepest self or that sweet spot I find so delicious.
This letting go has allowed it to become calm and quiet again. That’s why they call it meditation practice not meditation perfect!
When life is busy and stressful It is so easy to forget our learning, This is another reason why discipline and a good teacher can be a profound support.